Here I am again with another roundup blog, and it honestly feels like only yesterday that I was writing the last one.
I feel like a lot has happened in October. It was our anniversary, we visited the meerkats, we decorated the house for Halloween and we had a big Halloween charity weekend at work.
My goal for this month was to push the boundaries of my comfort zone. I have definitely made more of an effort, I’ve been out and about doing things that would normally worry me too much.
Going to visit the meerkats was a big one. I don’t like driving to places I don’t know, but I managed to do it and it felt so good.
The past two weeks have been rough. I’ve binged a lot and I’ve therefore gained a bit of weight. It’s scary, and the temptation to starve myself afterwards is very strong.
I’ve been fighting it though, and each day I start again and remind myself how important it is to eat. Starving will only lead to more binged in the long run.
It has been difficult, and it’s something I’m focusing on in therapy. We’re looking at why I end up binging, and it is making a lot more sense to me now.
If I can look back at the end of November and see that I’ve managed to reduce binging, I’ll be so, so happy!
I have two other goals for November:
1) Do a bit of writing
When I started getting ill, I stopped writing fiction, and that had always been something I really enjoyed. I just couldn’t seem to find the motivation or the creativity anymore.
But recently, I’ve found myself wanting to write again, which is a good sign! So I’d like to write something, even if it’s just a few paragraphs.
2) Stop comparing myself to others
This, for me, is the ugly side of social media. I spend hours looking through profiles of well-known people wishing I was as pretty, as successful, as thin as them.
I know I’m not the only one, and I know that it’s an unfair comparison. It’s so damaging for anyone’s mental health and I need to stop doing it.
As always, here are some of my favourite photos from October!